safe

i've been trying to suss some things out.

i think i had a real break through today doc.

i liked being with Guy S. i think part of the reason was i felt safe. like he could and would beat the ever lovin' tar out of anyone who spoke to me the wrong way. kinda nice, in a cavemanish way maybe, appeals to the reptilian brain. or maybe just appeals to my damaged self.

but it annoyed me when Guy D told me that i made him feel safe. like it's too much pressure for me to keep a full grown man safe.

give me a break.